What I am...and what I am not...

I am in love with Jonathan...
I am a girl one year older...with wrinkles...with gray hair...
I have aged. It's apparent.
I am a girl with a desire to have a family again...but a girl who misses her husband desperately
I am not willing to settle
I am willing to love
I am willing to meet new people
I thought it would be okay if those people were not like Jonathan...but it's not. Jonathan was fun. IS fun. The light of my life. Unique, with opinions, with things to teach me. My love. My love. My love.
I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. Where are you? I miss you. Come back. NOW. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please. Please.
7 Pleases because that was your favorite number (since you didn't really care about your favorite number, but I made you tell me what it was).
I am strong. Maybe...
I am okay. Maybe...
I am struggling. Maybe...
I am not a girl without a future..it just hasn't come yet.
I am not unhappy either. I just miss you. Tremendously  x  Infinity.