Healing moment

I think I had my first healing moment today- even with the massive amounts of snow. I worked from home today which is always nice. I think a lot of nice things have contributed to my feeling a bit better. I got a book in the mail from loving Abby, I decided to have Jonathan's truck looked at for problems (more of a closure type healing)- even if they find nothing wrong with the car, at least it will narrow things down. I think the unknown has been haunting me more than I realized. I went to Zach and Anne's for St. Patty's day and had corned beef and cabbage- yum. I went to Steamboat which was a great getaway. I bought some of my favorite beer. I talked to a couple of old friends from high school- that I haven't talked to for awhile. I realized today that I easily find beauty in everything. I'm slowly starting to feel more alive than I have ever known. A woman from work sent me a nice email saying that she and her family pray for me every day. I am remembering very unusual snippets of time with Jonathan- that I would have probably never otherwise thought of again. I took a bath and looked at my new vanity and remembered when the vanity was sitting in the garage and I was concerned about the pits in the granite. Jonathan did his best to tell me that granite has pits. I finally believed him. I remember crawling on my stomach between the top floor and the basement in order to help Jonathan get the drain pipe for the tub lined up correctly. I remember our first camping trip overlooking the Mogollon Rim. I remember our honeymoon up to BC and back. I remember stopping in Hood River, OR. What a beautiful place. I find myself saying little things that he used to say- in the way he used to say them. I wish days like today happened more often.  A little peace.